I - of

I am who I am and there's no changing it. Sometimes, being yourself can be frustrating. I don't know whether the words that come out of my mouth are my own or not. But, I am saying it for some reason, which is (are) pointless in nature. I am sometimes awestruck at hearing my own words, that I become obliviated (this word doesn't exist, it seems). Being pointless is what i least wanna be in my life, I guess that is what every normal person's notion or goal whenever they open their mouth. It's only very recently, maybe a year or two that I started loving myself.That feeling can never make you feel lonely. But I sometimes feel that could make someone overconfident and arrogant. Those are the words that I have hated since my childhood. The point is that I have no point when I am talking about something important. This may not be true but something tells me so. Sometimes I am driven by words I didn't have to think of.